Baby’s First Easter!!

I am sooo so EXCITED for Easter this year. It is Kaden’s first Easter. We are going to my house about 45 minutes from where we live to celebrate. We don’t get to go there much because we are always so busy and so when we plan a trip I really look forward to it. We will be going on Saturday and my family will be having a big turkey dinner. YUM! And then on Sunday, hopefully the Easter bunny will have found Kaden and we will check out all the treats and then head to church for a big breakfast and then the Easter service. I CAN’T WAIT!

Tonight, when Trevor is off work we are going to do our “Easter Bunny” shopping. Yes we leave everything until the last minute. I know Kaden is way to young to understand but he will be 6 months old in June so I want to get him some things for the summer. We intend to play outside with him a lot so I think we will  get him some sandbox toys. Trevor is going to build him a sandbox and he is so excited to do that for him. I also want to get him some bubbles. I think he would really get a kick out of those when he is a bit older. Kids LOVE bubbles. Then we will just get him a few toys. Not a whole lot since he already has so many and I also want to teach him that Easter isn’t only about gifts.. I will post some pictures after our trip. I’ve previously posted the pictures that we had taken of my little Easter bunny but here are a few more since they are sooo cute!!<3

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JUST LOVE HIM!!

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Bunny tail!

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& a little chick! :)

It’s the little moments..

It is amazing how being a mom has already taught me so much about myself and about life in general. I think one of the most significant things that I have learned so far is to enjoy the little moments. 

Since becoming a mom I have realized that this job is nothing like what I thought. When you decide you want to have a baby, if you are like me, you think of all the times you will spend cuddling, playing and being out visiting and enjoying your life as a family. You think about the bond you will have as a family and how great it will be for you and your significant other to have something that you both created and both love so much. All of these things did happen since having our son, but there is no way that I could have ever been prepared for this mommy role. It is so much more than what I had said I was initially thinking it would be. You don’t think about how tired you will be or how emotionally and physically drained you will become. But it’s also not a bad thing. There are tough days yes, and sometimes I just wish I could get a break, but then when offered one I refuse to take it because this is MY JOB and I don’t feel like my son should have to be away from his mom already. There are days when I just want to be able to do what I want but I feel guilty and there are times at night when I am soo tired from being up with him that I just want to sleep. With all of that being said, It’s such a crazy thing to love someone so much that you would give everything up for, because even on the days when I feel like I want a break, or just want a chance to do my own thing I think, “Well if I had the chance, would I?” and the answer is “No.” Because all of that aside, at the end of the day, all I want is to be a mommy and be with my little boy and my family so it all comes down to the little moments. The moments I’ve learned to really appreciate (not that I don’t appreciate all the moments in my new wonderful life). The moments where I just get to relax and reflect back on how wonderful my life is, and how much it has changed. I’ve learned to appreciate the little moments. The moments with my son, the moments with my fiance, and the moments with just me.

My son napped for 2 hours the other day. He hadn’t done that in weeks and it was so nice to just sit back and relax. I did a little bit of cleaning and had a coffee. It was great! Because I am so busy, and don’t get those times often, I really appreciate them. I used to take my time for granted. I used to just laze around on my days off and not get anything done and then wonder later where the time went. I would feel awful that I hadn’t accomplished the days goals. Since having Kaden it’s not like that. I appreciate the time I have so much more now. Even though I love being with him, I love to be able to have a few minutes to get the laundry done or do some dusting and experience that satisfaction of accomplishment. But most of all, I appreciate the ME time I have. It’s pretty few and far between where I am actually able to sit back and relax and not have to worry about being disturbed. It is so nice to wake up early in the morning, (Like I am right now), even when I am tired, and just sit back with a cup of coffee, watch the sun come up, catch up on blogging or watching vlogs that I watch, whatever I want while I wait for my family to wake up. I used to take it for granted but not anymore and I have my son to thank for that.

I hope this blog entry makes sense and isn’t too ramble-e :) It’s just how I feel.

Being a mother sure changes you and It’s something you just can’t explain to anyone until they experience it because it’s more of a feeling and way of thinking than a physical thing. I feel like I have grown so much and I hear it only gets better. :)

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New day, New beginnings!

So today I woke up in an Exceptionally Fantastic mood. Today marks the day that a lot of changes will be made within my family. One reason for that is that it is TAX RETURN DAY! We got our income tax refund today and we have been patiently/excitedly awaiting it. With it we are paying off a big amount of high interest debt which will take a huge weight off of our shoulders and allow us to me able to relax a bit. I am so happy about that. This tax return also allows me and my fiance to be able to buy something fun for ourselves. We have been so busy lately and we need a pick me up. I know money doesn’t buy happiness but getting something new and fun does make us happy. haha

Today we are also waiting confirmation about if we sold our car which would be awesome!! We have been trying to get rid of it because it has some things wrong with it and we can’t drive it. We were going to have to spend a big chunk of money to get it fixed in order to sell but we might not have to spend as much as we thought because Trevor’s mother’s manfriend (I say manfriend because I feel like boyfriend is for high schoolers lol) found us a buyer (he just has to confirm with him today) and he said that he will be able to fix everything on it first for cheap! YAY! This will take another huge burden off of us because we won’t be constantly trying to work things out with only one car and I will have more freedom during the day when I am home with the baby. I miss having two cars SO MUCH!

Today we are also getting a membership to the YMCA! We don’t have a lot of money to spend on a membership each month but apparently if you go in and talk to them they will work with you to find a price that fits your budget! WHO KNEW!? Trevor went in a few days ago and talked to them and they just have to call us and let us know the final numbers. Trevor is calling them today to see what they came up with. This family needs some more physical activity in it’s life. We have a wedding to prepare for in summer of 2014 and I also want to look and feel good for THIS summer! Because you can’t feel good and get fit with ONLY working out and getting exercise, today we are also going to be starting towards a life of CLEAN EATING. This is very exciting because we eat pretty terrible up until now. I found a website that has so far taught me a lot about the clean eating lifestyle and I am super excited to be able to make this happen for my family.

Hmm, what else for today.. oh yeah, How about the fact that it is BEAUTIFUL outside. That just makes a day great all on it’s own:) Spring is just around the corner I can almost taste it. haha I can’t wait to be able to get out there and start walking everyday with Memphis and Kaden.

So needless to say I have a lot to be thankful for. I am so excited about life today and about getting on the right track, and where I have been wanting to be for a long time. Prayer goes a long way and I tell ya, I have been sending prayers out left, right and center for God to take care of my family and get us into a good living situation and it’s true.. When you let go and let God, He really does make it happen! I owe it all to Him. Loving life<3

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Three months already..

Wow I can not believe that my little guy is 3 months old today. On one hand I feel like it has gone so fast and it feels like he was just born yesterday but on the other hand I can’t remember what my life was like without him and I feel like he has always been here.

Being a mom is something I’ve always wanted. However it is so much more than I thought it would be. I can’t get over how exhausting it is and how much time I spend worried that I am not good enough, and that I will screw it up and now HARD the entire job is. BUT, with all of that being said it is the most amazing, rewarding job in the entire world and even when I feel like I am so tired and emotionally, mentally and physically drained, and that I will never be able to make it through the day, just one smile from his sweet face just makes it all better and fills me with the warmest feeling inside. I love him more than I could have ever imagined and even though he’s 3 months old today and part of me wants him to slow down, a bigger part of me loves to see him age and change, and I can’t wait to have all of his life experiences with him and his dad and to watch our family grow together. Those two boys have such a special place in my heart.. I just can’t even put it into words. <3

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Mommy’s little Easter bunny rabbit!

Sweetest little bunny I’ve ever seen..Image

I can’t even handle the cuteness! :P

 

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Makes a pretty handsome chick too!! <3

 

We got these pictures done by a girl that I found through a post on Facebook. Someone liked one of her photos or something and it showed up in my news feed. She was doing Easter photos for only $20!! I was pretty excited and they turned out so great! Love my little bunny rabbit!