Wow. Today is just one of those days. A day where I feel like I am being tested. A day where everything I do seems to be 10 times bigger than it is. A day where there have already been severals times where I just wanted to sit down and cry. And have I mentioned that it is only 11am?
Why is it that, from the outside, a day can seem just like the last day, but a closer looks reveals that it is nothing like the last day at all. What is it that goes on between the night and the morning that makes us wake up in a state that we just seem to not be able to deal with the day? Or it is just me?
To be quite honest it doesn’t even seem like there are any huge “stressors” going on. Mainly I just feel in a funk. I even did yoga today and that didn’t even help.
I just needed to vent and this always seems to be the best place to do it. Quickly getting it out one key stroke after another helps me relax and just feel better about the things I face throughout the day.
Kaden is really starting to become mobile and he is into EVERYTHING. I love to watch him grow but I am quickly realizing that when he is a awake it is no longer a time to unload the dishwasher, do laundry, or even PEE for that matter. Nothing is safe.. He needs constant surveillance. haha.
Memphis is also driving me nuts today. I swear that dog can sniff out a bad day and she uses it against me and acts as needy and whiny as humanly, (Doggly?) possible. Someone needs more attention.
Anyway with all this venting it must be said that it is definitely time for some revamping. Tomorrow is the start of a new month and that is always a great time for change and organization. Right? So, starting tomorrow I will be walking more with Memphis, planning better meals, going swimming more with Kaden during the week (he loves it), doing yoga everyday, and reading my bible everyday.. I spend to much time thinking about ALL the things I want to do instead of just doing it and that is a HUGE thing that gets to me on days like this. It makes me sad that a little lack of motivation is holding me back from things that are important to me.
Enough said, and time to get prepared. :)